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Imbasan

Terlalu banyak perkara ingin diluahkan. Terbuku di hati, di fikiran nama nya kenangan dengan dia sentiasa ada setiap saat. Macam mana engkau nak hadapi seharian waktu tanpa berfiikir tentang dia sedangkan kau dah terbiasa hidup ditemani dia. Macam mana dulu dia boleh buat kau tersenyum gembira seharian, macam tulah dia boleh menghampa kan hati kau, melukakan perasaan kau sehingga kau rasa kecewa seharian malah tidak pernah kau rasa gembira walau sesaat pon.Betapa sekarang kau sedar, dia yang selalu kau jaga nama nya, dia yang selalu ada dalam hati fikiran jiwa kau adalah orang yang sekarang mampu berkata buruk tentang kau tanpa fikir perasaan kau.yang dulu penting, yang dulu dia jaga, yang dulu dia kisah dan peduli, sekarang semua takda. apa yang dijanjikan apa yang pernah dikatakan semua manis di bibir. Mungkin benar diri ni saagat jahil dan lalai. Apa yang tersarung di kepala ku menutup aurat ku tidak sama dengan perangai ku, adap ku, kesopanan ku. Namun tetap saja, hati siapa takka…

Pain

seeing those happy married couple outside makes me feel envy toward them. Bcs till now i don't get a chance to meet a guy who can makes me be the happiest girl on earth and make it forever. All i got is my life turns upside down bcs of love. Guy just easily come and go. Nobody stay. How the one i loved ruined my life and i have to be strong just to feel okay again. How i wish the scars tht he left in me just disappear without need anyone to fix it. I'm not hoping that he will come and we both become like before, i just want someone will come into my life and erase all that shitty little things out.But somehow i don't feel like I'm ready yet to fall in love again. The pain that he put me through seems never go. despite that I trust Allah. I trust Him. He can give me the best man beyond the best. I just too young to know about "forever"This is not an sympathic post. Forgive me.