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The one my heart beats fr.

Another day has gone, I'm still all alone. How could this be? You're not here with me, you never said goodbye. Someone tell me why, did you have to go? And leave my world so coldEveryday I sit and ask myself. How did love slip away. Something whispers in my ear and says. That you are not alone. I am here with you. Though you're far away. I am here to stay. Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart


Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street. Faster than the wind, passionate as sin, ending so suddenly.
Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you're already flying through the free fall Like the colors in autumn, so bright just before they lose it all
Losing him was blue like I'd never known.
Missing him was dark grey all alone. 
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met.
Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you. 
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song.  Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer
Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong.
Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes
Tell myself it's time now, gotta let go But moving on from him is impossible When I still see it all in my head
'Cause loving him was red And that's why …

bahagia kalau...

walau ku bahagia mengejar bayangan mu, tak mungkin ku peroleh saat indah bersama mu

Menunggu karma

Aku yang terusir, jauh dari kamu
Cinta dan harapan dibunuh dan mati Bangkit dan terbunuh lagi (semua karena dirimu). Aku yang mengemis Mengais cintamu, seperti pengemis. Aku yang dibuang dari relung tangan orang yang ku cinta.
Oh Tuhan ampunilah dosa Dendam aku padanya
Menunggu karma, aku menunggu karma.
Dengar dan ingatlah. Saat aku bangkit dari kesedihan. Engkau kan berlutut memohon diriku. Memohon ampunan dari diriku
Oh Tuhan ampunilah aku, niat buruk di doa Aku hanya inginkan dia merasakan getir cintaku
Menunggu karma membalasmu Aku menunggu karma membalasmu.

Aku, aku akan cuba

Aku tak percaya lagi, dengan apa yang kau beri. Aku terdampar disini, tersudut menunggu cahaya ilahi Aku tak percaya lagi akan kau punya janji, yang dulu mampu terangi sudut gelap hati ini. Aku berhenti berharap dan menunggu datang gelap. Sampai nanti suatu saat ada cinta aku dapat. Kenapa ada derita bila bahagia tercipta. Kenapa ada sang hitam bila putih menyenangkan...
Aku pulang tanpa dendam. Ku terima kekalahan ku. Ku salutkan kemenangan ku.
Kau ajarkan aku bahagia. Kau ajarkan derita. Kau tunjukkan aku bahgia. kau tunjukkan aku derita. Kau berikan aku harapan, kau pergi tanpa perasaan.
Tinggal aku disini, cuba bangkit dengan setiap cebisan harapan ingin bahagia bersama kau. Namun, tiada dendam.

Strong enuff

Hey There. You! Yes its you. You the one tht gave me so much pain. I've got through it by myself all alone jst to forget all the momories. im hurt. im dying. im broken enough. I swallowing my pride seek yr forgiveness. I do all things jst to make sure we will get back. But its pointless. Bcs you've changed. 
Its so easy fr you left me. Forget all the memories we created. Just like tht. Maybe you've found my replacement. But im here. crying bcs of you. Hmm its okay. it takes time. But im sure. Allah will give me someone 100% better than you. In syaa Allah.


Ahaa, aku suka post w pictures on top. Kadang kadang nak post tapi tkde gambar sesuai di cancelkan je niat tu. Tapi ekceli gambar takde kene mngene2 pon dengan apa nak cakap. Hehh. Nonsense.
Woiii hangpa tau dak tinggai seminggu ja lagi ni aku nak p berangkat meninggalkan seghomban. Excited tu dah takdeee. Yang ada rasa sedih je nk tinggalkan omak den. 18 tahun hidup tk pernah berenggang. aduyai. memlm je keluar lah ayaq mata ni. UGH!

Olaaalaa laa

Aipp. Its 4 o'clock in the morning and yea im still wide awake typing all i do here. Im not sleepy yet, still think abt him which idk if he think abt me or not. Playing my sims freeplay on iPad, editing pictures, scrolling instagram, online on facebook and reading those tweets on twitter, checking beautiful pictures on weheartit and tumblr of mine. Laying on my bed like a dump fat ass. Her her.
Wasting time is my routine job. Trying to remember Allah i turn on the surah yasin and surah kahfi. My mom told me music "boleh keras kan hati" if we listen it too much. May Allah bless me and all of us frm whts danger and dajjal.
 i cant sleep. Stress. Ya Allah

its better

ONE MONTH LEFT. Im leaving. i will leave all behind. The pieces of you w end soon.

Keep changing. Ahaks!

I changed my blog skin all over again and again. herher

Can't stand it :(

I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us, How we met and the sparks flew instantly, People would say, "They're the lucky ones." I used to know my place was a spot next to you, Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat, Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on.
Oh, a simple complication, miscommunications lead to fall-out. So many things that I wish you knew, So many walls that I can't break through.
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking, And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah? I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down, And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.
Next chapter.
How'd we end up this way? See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy, And you're doing your best to avoid me. I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us, How I was losing my mind when I saw you here, But you he…


Aipp. Listen up. Yey tuday is special day bcs its my super deduper bestfriend's birthday. Nuralissa Nadia, officially EIGHTEEN! Big number, small girl. Yehh, but sedihhnye kite tak dapat celebrate together. hmmm :( but its okay im hoping the best fr you. Have a blast! have a good life happy as always. Thanks fr being my happiest girl friend ever! 
She's so understanding, a friend tht can makes me laugh even i dont want to smile. Of course she has a pretty face w kind heart. Friendly is her. She love to make friends w everyone. i wish i could be like her. harhar.
'Semoga eca belajar baik baik dkt kptm nanti. Berjaya dengan majunye. Harap kita dapat lepak selalu sebab mii dah lama betul tk lepak dgn eca. Rindu sangat aiyooo deyy thambi. You always be my good friend ever.